This past weekend Frans Stiene of the International House of Reiki was in Washington DC to give a talk and teach a Shinpiden class. From time to time over the weekend my thoughts would shift towards the class and all the people in the class. I would wonder what they were talking about at that given moment. I know from the Shinpiden class I did in 2008 that they were experiencing something amazing and life changing. I wondered how many were re-sitting the class and getting even more out of it this time around from their continued practice since they last did the class. Though I know that I couldn’t have made the DC class, I was trying to get to the class being held next week in San Rafael California. A friend is going and we had hopes of fling there together and rooming together, sharing the rental car. Sadly I will not be able to attend next week, but with be thinking of them and knowing how much all those participants will come out of the class feeling blissful and excited for what’s ahead. I had been planning on going to this class for months now. I had finally saved up the money with the help of our tax return to cover the cost of travel, lodging, food and the class. The International House of Reiki offers a deep discount to past students making the choice to resit the class all the more enticing.
I have done pretty much all the web classes offered by my teachers and received additional support through emails and a couple of one on one Skype chats. I know the level and quality of teaching taking place in the Shinpiden classes. This is why I want to resit a class. I know that the more I practice and the more my teacher practices the next time in class I am able to gain so much more. I know I will have during the teachings or practices given ah-ha moments. I know this based on my experiences from the past teachings and support. If you have the chance to resit classes with a quality teacher I say do it! I offer each student the ability to resit the current level they are at. I want every student to go home, practice what tools and techniques they have learned and come back for a chance to go deeper within by resitting the class. Just like I tell students, friends, my kids and colleagues to re-read books and their manuals after they have been learning and practicing because they will gain a deep insight from doing this. I frequently re-read my manuals and books. Each and every time something has come up for me that gives me an ah-ha moment. I see things in a different way as my practice grows and integrates new discoveries. The same goes for resitting classes.
I will admit I am bummed I will miss out on the class next week. I think it stinks because I know the potential of the outcome of it all. I am trying to look on the bright side of things and know if I was truly meant to be in that class everything would have come together so I could be there. It didn’t so I move forward and think about the upcoming retreat I hope to go to. I put the money aside that I saved for the Shinpiden class. It is sitting waiting to be used for the retreat. Once I had the money and details of everything figured out we announced to the kids I would be going away for a few days and that is when the issues came up. My youngest freaked out, became extremely attached and started waking up in the night and crawling into our bed. It got to the point where he had to be touching me. We are taking steps to help him with the separation anxiety this brought up. I did some major looking within and deep contemplating about whether I should go to the class or not. I talked with others seeking advice and opinions about the whole situation. You can imagine my dilemma. I wanted so much to go to this class, yet I knew on a deeper level my son could not bear to be away from me that long. Also my middle son was not happy about it either. I wasn’t sure how my oldest felt; he wasn’t sure how he felt about it. I contemplated how beneficial Reiki classes are, how it benefits not just me but those around me. Then I contemplated how young my son is emotionally and how attached he is to me. Both choices weighed heavy on my heart. The first choice being to leave my family for the first time ever for more than a day, the other of missing an amazing class and chance to grow and go deeper into my practice of the system of Reiki. In the end I decided to miss the class and hope he is in a better place and more able to handle me being gone for a few days in the months ahead for the retreat. I decided that I need to help my kids get used to me going away for classes and retreats. My practice is my life and my life is my practice, it’s who I am, who I have become. My plan is to have my mom spend more time with my kids especially the youngest one. She takes him when I do treatments, and my husband takes them places when I am teaching so far it is working out, but I am looking into renting a space. That is a whole other blog post in itself.
I suggest if you are able to resit a class, go for it! If life circumstances get in the way of that contemplate your options. Seek advice and support from others. In the end look within and make your choice. See if you can make a future class or retreat and work towards that if you can’t make the immediate one. Through experiencing this I learned how much my practice means to me, how much my kids are a priority and how I can/will/need to balance both. So hopefully in a future post I will talk about the great time I had at the retreat. In the mean time I look forward to hearing about the class from a friend and seeing how it is for her. I hope she as well as everyone else in the class has an amazing, deep profound experience and fabulous time!