Why I practice

Checking in, looking and observing where I’ve been and where I am headed. Lately I have been contemplating the questions: Why am I practicing the system of Reiki? What am I getting from it? How has it changed? As I have been thinking about these questions I have been taking a good long look at myself, my practice, and my reactions to life in general. Then last Monday I decided to listen to the Meditations tele class. I was able to listen to all of week one and some of week two. I even did the meditation from the class. What came up for me was a confirmation of those same answers that I got when asking the above questions. Then a funny thing happened, on the recording we go around talking about our experiences so I was able to hear myself talk about what came up for me in the meditation back when we first did the class. It was interesting and useful to me. I was able to see how things had slightly changed from that class to now. I was also able to see some of my own growth from this. It was nice to know I had gone deeper with my practice and had a different sense in why I practice in the first place. I think it is a good thing to look at ourselves and see where we are and were. In looking at myself I see that I am able to approach the new school year with much less worry than I did last year. Even with this being a huge year for the family all three kids are now in school. Of course I had the feelings of separation from my youngest that up until now had never spent more than a few hours here and there away from me. I did amazingly well that first day of school, I cried only after they let the kindergartners in the class. Much, much better than I or anyone else who knows me had thought I would do. As we are in week 2 of school, I am able to enjoy my time home alone. I am working on my classes, and future workshops, meditating a lot more throughout the day. Even with only a week and 2 days down I can see my practice going deeper already. I am seeing how I am changing and dealing with things that come up in a much calmer easier manner. I am becoming more humble as I see my practice unfold in unison with life. So I ask you to look at yourself and see where you are and how that has changed from where you were. Be grateful for the changes even the smallest change matters. It doesn’t have to be these huge grand things we think of when thinking about how our life is better or could be better, it’s all the small things that add up to big things that matter most. To answer a question you may have for me: Why do I practice? Well it’s really simple, I like myself a whole lot more when I practice. I feel a deeper connection to my true essence. I feel more aware, open and expanded from my practice. I anger and worry less, and when I do it’s not like it used to be. It makes me feel humble, and helps me be compassionate; in essence it helps me live the Precepts as close as I can.

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